The last few weeks have been an absolute roller coaster. Some amazing opportunities have come my way (after a lot of determination and persistence!!) and something that has completely shaken me to the core. So much so it has forced me to question my personal identity. Unfortunately, this hurdle is also life changing. It’ so new, and so raw that even my closest friends will be reading this, and thinking ‘what the fuck…’. It will remain that way too.
But, tonight, I felt hope. The type of hope that doesn’t come from someone saying ‘it will be ok’. I watched a beautiful piece about Chrissie Swan on A Current Affair. Not a show I would typically watch, but this I wanted to see. It was her being open and honest about who she is. Choices she regrets and choices which changed her life for the better.
What shocked and amazed me was how closely my thoughts aligned with hers. We are both confident, fat women. We both have dreams, we are both motivated by fun and we both stare directly into the eyes of our haters and failure. We are both opportunists and love life. We both give it a go. We both live with openness and love. And there is no question that we both believe the size of our asses just doesn’t matter.
I’m not a religious person, but I do believe things happen for a reason. I believe I was meant to watch her tonight. I needed it to remind me who I am and what’s important to me. I’ve had a week of questioning myself and that’s enough in it’s current format. It is time to realign myself with what matters to me -persistence, hope, dreams, honesty and action.
I put on Facebook that Chrissie Swan is my new hero. But, I agreed with so much of what she said. She reminded me, of me. Isn’t the thought that my new hero reminds me of me, intriguing? I certainly thought so because it dawned on me that maybe that’s how I see myself. She is my new hero. But, I have always been my own hero. To realise that is pretty powerful. A friend responded with “I would say that is because you are not aiming to be anyone other than yourself. That’s a wonderful thing.” What a shockingly stunning truth.
Good question, and I have no idea what the answer is.
But, last week I decided to try being vegan for one week. I originally said two weeks, but that sounded a bit hard. So I cut it down. Surely I don’t need to eat animal products for seven days. As I go out quite a lot, I’ve declared it is highly unlikely I will stick to it while out, but, I will try to make other choices more in line with a week of veganism.
So many people have asked me why am I doing it. Animal rights? Diet? And the only answer I can give is because I want to. Why not? I am open to all sorts of experiences and I always give people quizzical, ‘are you mad’ looks when they tell me they are vegan. So before (or continue to) I judge too harshly, I am going to try it. I get it from an animal rights perspective, but seriously, have they not tried Fromager d’Affinois??
I will document it on the blog and let you know how I am going. I might really love it, I might starve for a week, or I may just get really really angry and binge of eggs, meat, milk and cheese.
It’s 9:54am here in beautiful Sydney and I am yet to eat breakfast because I don’t know what to eat. This is going to be an interesting and a looonngggg week.
Happy Monday people!
In January 2014, I spent an afternoon taking photos with a mate. Do you remember my favourite dress for all year round? It was part of the same shoot. Yes, towels, hands flying everywhere and awkward positions outside the local private boys school were necessary to keep myself a modest woman during all the costume changes.
Well, I am super excited to have some more pictures.
The dress I am about to feature divides people. Some really love it (including yours truly) an others not so much. In fact, a good friend of mine told me I looked like a nurse.
It is by one of my favourite brands, Layfayette 148 New York which I have mentioned many times on this blog. The clothes are of a very high quality. They are classics. They use beautiful materials and are cut well.
I love the colour, and I love the fabric is thick, luxurious and doesn’t look or feel flimsy. As you know, I am also a big fan of a dress which highlights a womans waist and the pleat at the front adds some extra interest.
The best part, it doesn’t need much else. I have paired it with simple nude heels and a chunky necklace would work, but I’m a fan of simplicity.
To me, a great dress shouldn’t just look good, but it should make you feel great. This dress makes me feel great. It makes me feel like a woman.
Please note, I am sans make up and my hair is completely natural and still rather wet.
There aren’t too pictures of this dress unfortunately but I hope you enjoy the ones I do have.
Do you think I look like a nurse??